Still looking at the scale, and it’s not moving. I have my checkup schedule on the 15th and i want to be clear of PCOS or at least I want to be 5 kilos lighter than the last time I went to my OBGynecologist.
Pretty stressed right now, besides losing weight, I’m thinking of how to raise my household income. My husband and i are finishing a website and I hope it will be finish as soon as possible, because not having enough money is so depressing.
Well, I've manage to lose another 1 kilo in 2 weeks. It may not be that much but i feel much better not stressing too much about my target date. I think its more easier for me to take things slow, its less pressure on me and i felt that im losing more if im not too stressed about it.
I think im now more consistent with my 20 minute cardio workout. I bought an elliptical cardio machine 2 years ago and im now using it 3-4 times a week.
I have not been writing so much in this blog because of my office tasks, so i will be posting every Friday instead.
It was May 15 last Sunday, and it wasthe Pahiyas festival in our town. I just went home from the team building and decided not to go out, so that i can spend more time with my family, and to stay away from food. Just so i thought that im safe with the temptation of indulging too much fiesta fattening food. My mom dropped by and gave us 1 whole rosemary chicken with lots of cheese, baka mac, and ox tounge in tomato sauce, my favorite!
I just told her that im on diet, how can I lose weight if she keeps on bringing me food, but then she said "its fiesta, and i took the effort of preparing this, i came here and you're not gonna eat it?" and she started giving me her Meryl Streep impersonations. She said, “well i'll just take these back, if you dont want to". and so i stopped her, i said, "no mom, were going eat it, thank you so much"
And yeah,.. i ate, i think i ate more than 1200 calories that day...argh!
It’s going to our team building tomorrow, and remember my high school classmate who's now my Colleague's wife, well she’s coming too. Being around her makes me insecure, I keep thinking that , maybe our colleagues are secretly comparing us, how sexy and beautiful she is than me.
We been friends in gradeschool, but we sort of drifted apart in highschool, she started hanging around more with the popular, beautiful crowd, and I., I remain fat, actually fatter...uglier...
Hm...I’m starting to dislike what I’m typing here...this is just part of my insecurities..my paranoia...I really hope that no one will secretly compare us whatsoever, I hope that I’ll enjoy our team building tomorrow...I hope something wonderful will happen. Honestly I’m secretly wishing that we can sort of rekindle our friendship...nah...its awkward for me to do the first move, it'll make me look like a trying hard ambitious geek, if I’ll do that. Sshe’s beyond my reach, she’s too beautiful...too lucky to have everything...argh! here you again! stop it already!( talking to myself)
It’s been 4 days since I began my calorie counting diet regimen, and I’ve managed to lose 1 kilo. I wasn’t able to do my 30 minute m100s cardio exercise from YouTube but I’ve had 15 minutes walk every afternoon. One minor thing I’m complaining about this weight loss plan is that, it’s now difficult for me to sleep at night because I’m sort of starving. I think it’s because of the fruit yogurt maybe. Currently trying different yogurt flavors so that my taste buds wont get fed up with the taste.
And so last Friday, I decided to change my diet regimen again. Since yesterday, I’m only eating 1 yogurt, 1 banana, in the morning, 1 yogurt, 1 banana, and crackers in lunch and 1 banana and crackers at dinner. So that’s, 220 calories for the yogurt, 180 for the bananas, and 130 for the crackers, that’s a total of 720 calories only! I was hesitant at first because of my appetite, I might slip with this new diet plan, and guess what, I didn’t feel any starvation whatsoever, I think because of the meal replacement protein shake that I used to take, it changed my appetite i guess. I’m now on my 2nd day, and I still have 5 days to test this new diet plan. I don’t know if I’m setting the right expectation but I’m expecting to at least lose 1 kilo after 5 days. So we'll see....
I was searching about this calorie counting diet yesterday, and found out that i need to only consume 1200 calories per day to lose 1 kilo a week, and to lose more than a 1 kilo a week is not healthy. My desired weight is 50 kilos, and i still have 27 kilos to lose, and it also said that, the healthy way to lose it, is to lose it all in 14 months!
Hm..im still thinking of the fruit diet thing, i already computed the calories for the fruit diet regimen, i can only consume 540 calories all in all. But the thing here is that i also need a few more calories to do my m100s exercise. Well..I still have 3 days to decide....The fast way or the healthy way...
I used to think yogurt are bad tasting baby food. I did tried eating my sisters strawberry yogurt and it tasted like a sour milk, eek! Since I’m beginning to get fed up with bananas, i am searching and searching for some other cheap food alternative that will satisfy my taste, and so I tried this new mango yogurt, and what do you know! it tastes so good! 1 serving of this 125 gram yogurt is about 110 calories, so that’s good right!
So last week i was browsing one of my friend facebook profile, she’s also fat, and when I saw her pictures, vavavoom! she already lost 12 kilos in 6 days! ive never thought its possible and check again the pictures and it’s not photoshopped. I ask her what she did? Here's her weight loss regimen:
- 2 bananas for breakfast
- canned fruits and crackers for lunch
- no dinner, just lots of water throughout the day, and she’s doing 30 minute intense cardio workout every night
She saw this intense cardio workout in youtube, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bkD9LwDBWW0, I watched it and i was like, "hm..i need to do this, I mean its only 30 minutes per day.."
I don’t know if this is healthy or not, but, I think I’m going to try this after this week.
I’m daydreaming again, if i can do this weight loss routine, and if I can lose 12 kgs in 6 days, then I’ll be 50 kilos in 15 days!
The question is...can i do this?! wah!!!! Try and try until I’m satisfied!
Its holy week, everyone are fasting, im not a catholic but im sort of fasting too, fasting from unhealthy foods. My brother quit facebook from last week, he also stopped eating pork for a awhile. He will be returning back to his old habits after black Saturday, and is now planning to roast a pig for that day. hahha!
We'll be spending a short vacation with my in-laws, I still would need to be able to find time to jog, so that I won’t lose my momentum. Hm, I better check my weight again because, my in laws might cook a lot of food and will be tempted to eat them all up! hahah! Just to safe, I’m also going to prepare something special for the, something healthy to eat. And all I can think of is grilled bangus, (milkfish), I’m going to stuff it with salted egg, onions and tomatoes! yum yum! dessert will be green mango shake hay, can’t wait to home!
I’m trying do everything to lose weight, and my co worker is doing the best she can to gain weight. I’m eating bananas all the time and she eating supersized burgers and fried from McDonalds, but yet, I’m still fat and she’s still thin! Is it the genes again?!
I asked her on why she’s trying to be fat, she said, her mom won’t allow her to donate blood unless she gain 5 kilos. hahah! Then I asked her what’s her secret on being thin, she said none! Argh! I’m like wow! its effortless!
I’m out of bananas and I’m starving again, I forgot to eat lunch because I’m trying to write an article for the web. Hm...what to eat! we only have sweet mangoes in the pantry! hmmmmmm...?
Forest Gump, my best favorite film of all time, and I just watched it again for the nth time today. And because of this film, I’m thinking of maybe, add "running" to my "thing to do this year list".
I saw my highschool classmates facebook pages and I was surprised of their photos from the fun runs recently. They are now health conscious, and I felt a bit envious of how fit they are. I mean they're not fat back in highschool but not they are much beautiful to look at. I’m afraid of running, I have asthma and my last attack was during my labor.
This might be a new adventure for me. I think it’s fun. I'll go ahead and ask my doctor about it, if I’m not going to try this then when, when I’m heavier? No way! Argh! I need to lose weight!
It’s been 3 months and 2 days since I’ve eaten my last dark chocolate. And today, I’m having a writer’s block and I need to submit this article this week, right now I’m trying to listen to Carole King's jazzy songs to inspire me. All I can think of right now is dark chocolate, is this writer's block or am I just plain starving.
There are many protein bars, weight loss chocolate product replacements on the web. But the bittersweet taste of dark chocolate is exceptional. Argh! Why is it that fattening foods are more delicious than healthy foods!
Hm...Gotta find a way...I gotta find a healthy alternative for dark chocolate....hm...but what is it?
This 17 day diet is everywhere, and there are lots of testimonials on youtube. All of them are saying the same thing, "Its fast and effective". One of them continued using this diet plan for 4 months and lost 17 kilos! The only catch is that, it’s an investment! Weight loss products are ofcourse expensive, good health is an investment. The question is how much will i send for all these books, these products, to lose weight. My only restriction right now is my budget. I guess I’ll keep on searching for more. And for now, ill just stick to my banana diet.
Ok, remember Walter from my previous blog, that sarcastic guy did it again! I was eating my breadsticks, take note it’s a sugar free breadsticks, so as I was walking back to my cubicle, I saw him, and I smiled at him, I shared him my breadsticks, and instead of saying "thank you", he said that I should not be eating this because I’m almost the same size as him already! That jerk! Well, I still managed to crack a joke to hide my irritation. I told him, "Ok, I gave you a breadstick, you're eating it all up, and you're saying we have the same size already? No more breadsticks to you!" I was still smiling, but then he smirked a bit, and said, "well I’m just being blunt you know, that’s me". I got frickin annoyed, and just walked out him and proceed to our management meeting.
I maybe losing weight slowly but at least I am losing weight, it may not me much, it may not be noticeable, but I am doing my best to lose weight! I’m not asking him to give me a compliment, if he got nothing good to say, then he should just shut up!
This bullying has got to stop! And I’m going to make him shut up! So, after the meeting, I approached him and told him, "Walter, Walter.. I’m not going to allow you to say that or treat me like that next time, coz next time, I’m going to be really pissed, you aint gonna like it, your words are so mean, you dont know what I’m going through, so please, if you have nothing good to say, don’t say anything at all"
After a few minutes, he skyped me, saying that he’s sorry. And I’m ok again, I forgave him, told him that I’m ok now, let’s move on.
And now the day at the office ended up so well. I was able to finish my tasks and I was able to educate a bully. I hope I can call him, my friend someday...well see..
I feel low today, there's always a time like this where you can’t just stop dwelling in the past, daydreaming of things that might have been if you haven’t done this and that, and right now, I’m thinking..
If I was thin, my childhood would be even better...hmm...
I want my daughter to have a happy childhood, I don’t want her to have a low self esteem like me.
I don’t want her to be teased and laughed at by her classmates. I want her to be healthy and happy..
I maybe late contemplating, but I’ll make sure that my kid will not go through all the bad stuff that had happened to me because I'm fat.
I’m on my usual day at work, I’m now using my 15 minute break time to look for the most cheapest diet fads in the web and I came across with this article about the Banana diet used in Japan. Since I’m also eating banana every breakfast, I’m thinking maybe I can just eat bananas for 15 days, just to maximize the effect of my protein shake. If I really wanted to lose 5 kilos in 2 weeks, then, I have to try everything. Just bananas in 15 days...i hope I can do it.
My last weigh in was last March 4, I used the analog scale of my OB Gyne, since i cant go there this week, i tried using the analog scale of my friend, yep! i lost 2 kilos only. I’m a bit sad because, I’m expecting to lose 5 kilos. or 4 kilos at least? Am I expecting too much? Or should I just use the scale of my doctor? Hm...
If Its really just lose 2 kilos then...I have to change something with my food intake, argh! Or maybe I’m doing something wrong? Or am I just expecting too much...here we go again!
I was about to write lemons in my grocery list, I computed everything and its over the budget, so I checked everything, deciding what to remove on my list. So I googled for the lemon diet again and I almost fell when I saw the second paragraph:
"Drink six to twelve glasses of this lemonade mixture daily. No food is eaten nor any vitamin supplements taken during the cleanse. If you get hungry, have another glass of lemonade."
Anyone can lose 8 lbs with that! So that’s why they call it water diet, I don’t think I can skip my vitamins for 10 days, this is not for me, I have PCOS and my priority to be healthy, I don’t want to starve to death. I want to lose weight, but I want enjoy it at the same time.
I’ll keep looking on the other weight loss article, product reviews that i can find, for now I’ll drink my med, eat right, I may not lose 8 lbs in 10 days but at least its less pressure and it’s more fun!
I’ve been reading some OK magazines lately, searching on the latest and cheapest weight loss products used by celebs. I saw this before and after pictures of Fergie, Beyonce, Ashanti, what’s more interesting is that they all tried lemon diet detox. So I went on and Google some information about the lemon detox and it seems like many people who have tried it said that its effective, and it has health benefits into it.
How to do this Lemon Diet Detox? Here’s what I found out:
For at least 10 days, drink around 10 servings/day of the following:
* 2 Tablespoons (1 fluid ounce) fresh-squeezed lemon or lime juice NOT BOTTLED JUICE!! (approx. 1/2 lemon),
* 2 Tablespoons (1 fluid ounce) organic Grade B maple syrup,
* 1/10 Teaspoon or more cayenne pepper (hot red pepper), and
* 1 Cup (8 fluid ounces) purified or spring water, NOT fluoridated water.
This is the equivalent of taking an empty gallon water jug and filling it with:
* the juice of 5 lemons
* 1 1/4 cup of organic Grade B maple syrup
* 1 teaspoon of cayenne pepper
* 10 cups of water
It sounds intriguing. I think im gonna try this next week for maybe 10 days. Well see if its really effective.
When you're on a diet, never ever watch "Man vs. Food", especially at night or you'll find yourself munching on the leftovers in the middle of the night. Not healthy at all! That’s a lesson learned from the past and it’s an everyday struggle.
Dinner time is always a family time, and it’s been a challenge to have this dinner time lately. They all know you're in this diet, but then your mom cooked you your favorite chicken adobo, asking you for a little appreciation to have at least a bite of this dish, and if you say no, she'll give you that Meryl Streep look. This prompted me to decide not to have this family dinners not until I reach my healthy weight goal of 50 kilos.
I don’t want to depend too much on my protein shake, these weight loss products are nothing if I’m not going to take control of myself, I need to help myself to lose all this excess weight that I have. And to do this, I need to eat healthy food, avoid eating too much and stay away from any kind of food temptation!
I just finished watching this video from my friends facebook. It’s about a case study on "Why are thin people not fat". They asked 8 thin people from ages 20-25 with different ethnicity to do this study. These participants claimed that they have no exercise and basically eat whatever they want but still manage to stay thin. So in this experiment they are required to eat 10,000 calories a day, and forbidden to do any physical activity in 4 weeks. And as the week passes they were measured, the body fat index and all that. After 4 weeks, they all gained 10 kilos. But they were all back to their original weight, 2 weeks after the experiment. And guess what, they haven’t tried any weight loss product whatsoever, they didn’t even try to exercise or diet or something. And because of these results, the following conclusions were derived from this study:
- your mom's appetite or food intake can predetermine your weight when you grow up
- no matter what you do, you body will naturally go back to its original, or shall we say, comfortable form.
Hm..if this study is correct, well i dont wanna blame my mama, heheh! i hope my weight will go back to 50 something kilos. But then again, I believe in a saying "no pain, no gain". Oh no, no more gaining! I want to be 50 kilos! heheh!
Im a 25 year old working mom of a 1 year old kid. Ive been Yoyo dieting since the age of 10.
Looking at the scale right now, yep! im now 80kg, my heaviest weight ever! Found out recently that i cant have another baby because ive developed PCOS.
Im still young, but i feel like dying already. I need to live longer for my daughter..and i still want to have another kid..
I need a lifestyle makeover, that's the best way to lose weight!
No more excuses! Operation Healthy Sexy Mama, now begins.
