Not Losing any Weight as of the Moment

Still looking at the scale, and it’s not moving. I have my checkup schedule on the 15th and i want to be clear of PCOS or at least I want to be 5 kilos lighter than the last time I went to my OBGynecologist.

Pretty stressed right now, besides losing weight, I’m thinking of how to raise my household income. My husband and i are finishing a website and I hope it will be finish as soon as possible, because not having enough money is so depressing.

Taking it slowly.

Well, I've manage to lose another 1 kilo in 2 weeks. It may not be that much but i feel much better not stressing too much about my target date. I think its more easier for me to take things slow, its less pressure on me and i felt that im losing more if im not too stressed about it.

I think im now more consistent with my 20 minute cardio workout. I bought an elliptical cardio machine 2 years ago and im now using it 3-4 times a week.

I have not been writing so much in this blog because of my office tasks, so i will be posting every Friday instead.

Its Fiesta...

It was May 15 last Sunday, and it wasthe Pahiyas festival in our town. I just went home from the team building and decided not to go out, so that i can spend more time with my family, and to stay away from food. Just so i thought that im safe with the temptation of indulging too much fiesta fattening food. My mom dropped by and gave us 1 whole rosemary chicken with lots of cheese, baka mac, and ox tounge in tomato sauce, my favorite!

 I just told her that im on diet, how can I lose weight if she keeps on bringing me food, but then she said "its fiesta, and i took the effort of preparing this, i came here and you're not gonna eat it?" and she started giving me her Meryl Streep impersonations. She said, “well i'll just take these back, if you dont want to". and so i stopped her, i said, "no mom, were going eat it, thank you so much"

And yeah,.. i ate, i think i ate more than 1200 calories that day...argh!

I Feel Fat and Ugly around HER..

It’s going to our team building tomorrow, and remember my high school classmate who's now my Colleague's wife, well she’s coming too. Being around her makes me insecure, I keep thinking that , maybe our colleagues are secretly comparing us, how sexy and beautiful she is than me.

We been friends in gradeschool, but we sort of drifted apart in highschool, she started hanging around more with the popular, beautiful crowd, and I., I remain fat, actually fatter...uglier...

Hm...I’m starting to dislike what I’m typing here...this is just part of my insecurities..my paranoia...I really hope that no one will secretly compare us whatsoever, I hope that I’ll enjoy our team building tomorrow...I hope something wonderful will happen. Honestly I’m secretly wishing that we can sort of rekindle our friendship...nah...its awkward for me to do the first move, it'll  make me look like a trying hard ambitious geek, if I’ll do that. Sshe’s beyond my reach, she’s too beautiful...too lucky to have everything...argh! here you again! stop it already!( talking to myself)

Lost 1 kilo in 4 days with Calorie Counting

It’s been 4 days since I began my calorie counting diet regimen, and I’ve managed to lose 1 kilo. I wasn’t able to do my 30 minute m100s cardio exercise from YouTube but I’ve had 15 minutes walk every afternoon. One minor thing I’m complaining about this weight loss plan is that, it’s now difficult for me to sleep at night because I’m sort of starving. I think it’s because of the fruit yogurt maybe. Currently trying different yogurt flavors so that my taste buds wont get fed up with the taste.

Calories for Today

And so last Friday, I decided to change  my diet regimen again. Since yesterday, I’m only eating 1 yogurt, 1 banana, in the morning, 1 yogurt, 1 banana, and crackers in lunch and 1 banana and crackers at dinner. So that’s, 220 calories for the yogurt, 180 for the bananas, and 130 for the crackers, that’s a total of 720 calories only! I was hesitant at first because of my appetite, I might slip with this new diet plan, and guess what, I didn’t feel any starvation whatsoever, I think because of the meal replacement protein shake that I used to take, it changed my appetite i guess.  
I’m now on my 2nd day, and I still have 5 days to test this new diet plan. I don’t know if I’m setting the right expectation but I’m expecting to at least lose 1 kilo after 5 days. So we'll see....

Calorie Counting

I was searching about this calorie counting diet yesterday, and found out that i need to only consume 1200 calories per day to lose 1 kilo a week, and to lose more than a 1 kilo a week is not healthy. My desired weight is 50 kilos, and i still have 27 kilos to lose, and it also said that, the healthy way to lose it, is to lose it all in 14 months!

Hm..im still thinking of the fruit diet thing, i already computed the calories for the fruit diet regimen, i can only consume 540 calories all in all. But the thing here is that i also need a few more calories to do my m100s exercise. Well..I still have 3 days to decide....The fast way or the healthy way...