The "Fat Girl Nomore" Checklist

I just finished all my tasks today. I was about to go to our pantry to get a banana and then I saw my highschool classmate, let’s just name her J, who happens to be the wife of my co worker. I remained seated, put on my headset, to give her an impression that I’m occupied with my work, and so that she will not approach and talk to me or something.
 
Why do I do that? Because I’m insecure. She's always been pretty, she now has 1 kid but still looks stunning. Always the Prom Queen, and I...I look like I had 6 kids already, even octomom is still pretty! Argh! I promised to myself that I’m not going to be insecure, i need to fight it. 

And so, because I’m busy, “trying to look busy”, I’ve had this wishful thinking again, daydreaming again of the things that I’m going to do once I reached my healthy weight goal of 50 kilos. Here it is:

-          Buy a flowing, floral dress. Hm…I’m going to buy MORE feminine clothes for my new sexy body! And sexy new underwear! yeah!

-          Go to church and say hi to “that old lady who loves giving me those unsolicited advice”

-          I’m going to have a regular daily stroll with my daughter every morning.

-          I’m going to have my fabulous comeback to our highschool reunion.

-          Well have a 2^nd honeymoon to Boracay Island.

-          My office attire will be more corporate, feminine and sexy looking! Haha!

Maybe by that time I’m more confident to talked to J. Once I reached 50 Kilos, I’m still going to drink my protein shake as my breakfast meal replacement, and I will convince my husband to lose weight too so that both of us are healthy.  I’m going to stay away with those weight loss products such as pills, we’ll always include fruits in our diet, ion detox will be twice a month. Whew! I really hope I can do all this..I just know I can…



YES I CAN….